March 3, 2011

All in a year...

Well, today I turned 25. Insurance is cheaper (hopefully) and now I can rent a car. And now I can say I am a quarter of a century old. Ha!! How exciting.. (insert eye roll.. here) What I can say, without sarcasm and minus the eye roll.. is that I am incredibly blessed. I am so thankful for so many people around me, near and far who care enough to take a moment out of their day to celebrate my day of birth. People who I don't always talk to, some I have never met in real life, some are just barely acquaintances.. and yet they took a few seconds out of their days to celebrate my life with me.. even if it was for a moment in time. And that is a true blessing, a gift, and a treasure. It something not all people are able to experience... but I do! And I have welcomed it with open arms. Message after message, call after call, post after post... all wishing me well on my 'special day.' It warmed my heart and brought many many smiles to my face. So thank-you to everyone for celebrating my day with me.. even if for just a second. 
I came home yesterday to find these on the counter..
Thank you Aunt S!!

Than there was a box with this in it...
Thank you R :)

Than today I got to work and this was on my desk...

Thanks work buddies!
 And than T gave me this..

Thank you friend

And I got a message with these..

 Thank you Z!!

When I got home, there were two birthday cards waiting with some mulah from the MIL and the PIL (pappaw-in-law.. i just made that up :] ) Well hubby had to go to class :( Which meant I was spending the evening by my lonesome.. No way was I going to stay at home.. so I went shopping! Nothing like retail therapy to get the blood pumping and the calories burning. While I was out perusing the shelves and wandering through aisles of fresh cotton and polyester and crisp denim  jeans.. I started thinking. (Thinking is something I do quite frequently, especially these days.) I often get lost in my thoughts as this is the place I can recall my Savanna. I started to think of this last year. From 24-25. So much has happened.

I gave birth to my beautiful Savanna Dawn, I moved across the country to Texas, I changed jobs, I went back to school, I adjusted to a new life, I celebrated my 2nd year anniversary to my other half and best friend, I started a new job, put Savanna in daycare, I also watched my daughter's life slip from her being, I buried my 7 1/2 month old, picked out a casket for her, a headstone, and a spot on a hill, I celebrated a Christmas without her.. and than I celebrated a new year, I began to make new friends, I became part of a community of those who had been traveling my path, I began to see the love blossoming from others, I strengthened my faith, I grieved.. I grew up.

This is me last year...

36w 4d.. Savanna was born 2 weeks later

And this year...

It hardly seems fair.. and to think... all in a year...

6 blessings, thoughts. &. feelings:

TanaLee Davis said...

Oh my heart breaks with you but it must be nice to be a little older and hopefully people will treat you your age. It seems to me that until your 25 people call you sweety. lol thank you for sharing the pictures. I love the ladybug ring...wish I could find something like that to remember TanaLee. I can't find cute ladybug jewelry in oregon. :(

crystal said...

Happy Birthday!!! I don't know you personally, but I have been reading your blogs. I know that we often wonder why things happen the way they do and we ask God but sometimes never find the answer. From the looks of your pictures, you have touched many lives and you are loved by so many. I am praying for you and I hope God will give you and your husband the strength to make it through this trial and I pray that God gives you guys peace.
Love in Christ,

Mary said...

I'm a little late but Happy Birthday! Isn't it amazing how a year can change a person?! Wishing you lots of peace this coming year...You will make it through, Savanna will guarantee it as she watches over her momma!

New Year Mum said...

Happy birthday :))... and lovely that you've had so many well wishes. I agree with Mary that it's truly amazing how a year can completely turn around a person's life - may your coming year be more peaceful and bring you closer to your dreams. Thinking of you and Savanna xoxo

Kellie said...

Happy Birthday! I am so glad you found me. No one should go through this alone. I never thought I would be a member of this horrible club we are in. We have to stick together. WE CAN DO THIS!!
<3 Kelie

Virginia said...

It's not fair. It's not fair at all. I found your blog through Kellie's, and I too am a member of this horrible and painful "club". My heart aches every day not only for the loss of my own daughter, but the loss of all babies and the pain of all parents who have lost them.

I will continue to pray for your growth. I hope you have a good birthday.

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